Social Anxiety

It's a serious condition and needs to be respected as so. If someone TELLS YOU that they have a genuine fear of talking to people then you should realize that they just opened up to you and you should not assume its" fixable" or that it should be dismissed.
sorry, just angry.

Eyes Wide Open

So this is the end of the story...

Rejection is hard dudes, like really hard, I've been dealing with rejection for almost 20 months and I just keep hitting that fucking brick wall hoping that it will eventually cave and I can get in.

It's weird, I'm starting to realize how shitty this friendship is. If it even is one. I don't like that. I'm afraid to speak my mind and tell you my feelings and I'm afraid to tell you anything at all.

So here it is: If you've been reading my blog, fuck you. I hate you, I hate you , I hate how you make me feel like a grain of sand in the desert, I hate you for never opening up to me, I hate having more courage to add your friends on facebook and not you, I hate trying and I mostly hate that if you came around and said sorry and tried harder I would fall for it all over again. Fuck.

Two sides of the story

Song of the night

Queso what's your problem?

Just started a VYou.

Please ask me questions!!! I don't know if you have to sign in or not to ask but PLEASE!


http://vyou.com/user_121973

New Chef in Da Haus

If you have chicken,  please go out and buy Kraft's Fresh Take packets.

 I cooked with the Italian Parmesan tonight and it was SO FUCKING GOOD!! Like seriously, make sure you coat your chicken with beaten eggs NOT water, unless you are allergic. I usually do not like eggs and I couldnt taste it at all, it helps the breading stick more and it just adds that extra something.

I also cooked spaghetti from semi scratch-- tomato paste, water. olive oil and a couple tbsps of red wine.

The only problem I had was with the pasta, I used penne and there wasnt enough water covering the noodles and some of them were a little hard on spots. But the chicken was juicy and warm and amazing,

We stocked up on all different flavors of Fresh takes so more yummy foodie adventures await!

It's safe to say that my boyfriend has passed the cooking torch on to me. For the most part.

Somepeoplejustdonttrytomaketheirlivesbetteryouknow?

Lemme break it down to you. If you wanna change, you want to change. And if you don't, do not go around telling people you are, cause when you don't come through you look like an ass, a flake,and just look like a fuckin fool.

I guess I've just heard the same story too many fucking times before to really care about what you say. It was cute for a while, the fallen hero trying to get back up but never being able too, but when your vows last for like a fuckin day, all I can think of is one word: Jaded

What sucks is that I have to change and you don't. It's no longer an argument anymore, it is just plain and simple hard cold fact. 


It's hard enough to drop a habit, I get that, I was addicted to morphine and vicoden for years, but someone helped me get off it. Actually i just ran out of pills and I wasnt going to the ER anymore. But when it's something that is not physically addictive nor mentally, to an extent, and you dont even decline but rather incline in your habit just because you can.... come freakin on!!!!

Yes, this blog post is directed at you. Yes, I'm over it, No, I don't want to argue with you. Please just give me and yourself enough respect to realize that you have an addiction and you have no intention of getting off it.  Don't tell me you're trying to quit "but it's just so hard", don't tell me you are doing anything, just DO.

Disneyland no more.

Sometimes I really miss when my boyfriend worked as a Disneyland Hotels lifeguard. Just because he looked really hott in his guard uniform, I got to go backstage, his friends where cool( for the most part) and I got to go in when ever I wanted.

But really, anyone can go to the pools, the food wasnt that great, backstage looks like shit, and he looks better without a whole bunch of red sweatsuit on. And his friends, they all suck. Save for like two of them.

You try

Listening to the Jonas Brothers station on Pandora and then seeing Miley Cyrus and her new hair.

Just try not to die inside.

Writing challenge

Put iTunes( or what ever other music player you use) on shuffle. Pick a number and SHUFFLE SONGS that many times. What ever the song, write a one or two page piece on the song.

*not about the song or how it makes you feel but rather, the story being told*

I'll post my story later, let me know if you do it too!

Basically my life this month.

I just wanted to state that I had the fanciest dinner the other day

• Poterhouse steak
• Salad
• Garlic Bread
• Red Wine
• all at my resort style pool area.

Tonight

So here we are again, throwing punchlines no one wins. As the morning sun begins to rise, we're fading fast, and we won't work this out.

:Lisztomania

You know how when you're on your computer, you can type everything perfect in the dark, and when you use someone else's, you can't even hit the spacebar right? Yeah, doing that right now. Fuck me.


So I'm back at home with a more than empty house, seriously, my roomates are NEVEr here. And everything is peachy keen again. LOve is restored and smiles for miles. Which is essentially what I wanted because I adore Jean with everything I got. But it's difficult when I want to move ofrward and be free to be who I want and I'm stuck , please take that with a grain of salt, with someone who stays put in his warm cozy comfort bubble. Since I've been back though, I've gotten nothing but what I wanted out of the time apart. He's understanding me, understanding himself and understanding US. Bad habits are being weaned and I think he's renewed his loooove for me.

Pandora is the greatest music aapp besides Spotify btw. Black Keys has been my fave station thus far.

Have you ever tried the sock bun, it's a fairly silly idea, putting a sick on your hair, but it looks nice and since every other hiposter bitch is into hair bunzz these days I have to switchy it up. If they ever catch onto my Goofy side bun, I will cut a hipster.


My only concern with JV is that he will never get that JH is nothing but an awesome friend with the same ditgits as a phone number like me. Whatevs right!? Life of a semipretty girl and her jealous boyf...


So yeah, Life updated. back on track, better than before. life=understood.

Me And Shantiel Vazquez at the Brave premiere

Riverside adventures

Finally after a wonderful week with my cousin and her two daughters, Janessa (4) and Josie (4months) I get to go home tonight. Way late tonight.

I went to Wal-Mart more times than I'll admit, in and out, the pool, and a drive in theatre. Oh and the riverside arts walk.

Next family adventure is in San Diego!

Youtube past 2:30am is one hell of a drug

Just saying, the unemployed and dirty people of the world have a way of oxidizing.

Germaphobe day 4:Harry and the Potters

So yesterday I went to UCI's Cross Cultural Center and saw my fave brother band Jonas Brothers Harry and The Potters.


It.was.magical.


First off, that place was fuckin Hogwarts cause NO BODY could find it unless you had like, the password or found fellow wizards walking towards it. I think at one point there was about 6 of us walking around and this lovely Hufflepuff led us to the show. Go figz. HPuffs are VERY good finders.


So we roll up at 6:30 like asked on the Facebook event listing and the soddy show doesnt start till 7:30. So Jean went to grab some noms like In-N-Out and Taco Bell. We got in finally and the smaaaallllleeesssttttt room was FILLED, and i mean fucking 200+ people, the cap was 200 for the room btw. The merch table is right there, ironically to my right, and I see HP4 selling the shiz and naturally claim my spot on the floor and head over before anything cool sells out. I ended up with a old HatP shirt, the black one with eagle (it's a mock of a rock band but i honestly cant remember which) and a pin of Joe playin the sax. It was freakin awesome seeing Joe again because we used to be pen pals in 09 and then when I officially met him he was all "hey Miranda" before I could even introduce myself. Which BTW he did again this night BEFORE I EVEN APPROACHED HIM. Like,Joe, you're the wizard star, not me. Stop yellin my name across the hall.  But thanks for congratulating me on my NASA internship, that you got me in to!


So the room became MAAAAAXXXX CAPP and having Potter Puppet Pals stage taking up about 25% of the room did not help, so lots of people had to stand and children were given the front, and of course fangirls complained. But teh best complaint was this hipster bitch in the back, i mean we only heard her voice, yell out" wouldn't it be great if we all sat down so the people in the back could see?!"in that really bitchy hipsterly way to which EVERYONE shot her down asap by saying that we were ordered to  stand so STFU.


Potter Puppets Pals: AMAZEBALLZ. Had Jean record it so I could lawlz later about how wonderful and funny Neil is. It was their first night on the HATP tour so there were some mess ups but generally it was better than the internet. My only regret is not saying hi to him at the merch table or getting a picture next to the puppet stage. I blame Joe.


Then after ike a 15 min break, A LOT of people cleared out and left  and then Harry Potter came to the stage. I was against the side stage wall or right next to Joe and his keyboard/the speaker with 100% view of him and the stage and paul and it was awesome. I was basically front row with out being fangirl front row. If that makes sense.....

The show was so awesome,and I got some great pictures.

Glory to the Mothership Russia!

HI RUSSIANS! THANKS FOR READING MY BLOG!

I was just using the stats page and it says most of my readers are from there. sweet!

Germaphobe 1 week: my muse

It's funny cause not only are you a Muse in my life, this song is by Muse, a band we both rather enjoy and its lyrics speak to me about you.

endorsements on endorsements

Welp, I've officially gotten Shantiel, my best friend and also kinda disney/nickelodeon actress, endorsed by a handmade hairbow company and we are working on a clothing company endorsement and now iphone cases.

random-est shit to be quite honest but it;s the swag that counts.


anyways, check out @annasparklesuk on INSTAGRAM for her shyt. it's legit to the maaaaxxx

little red riding hood

LATE NIGHT BLOGGING

Chrome on my Windows

Most of you use these two things. 

AWESOME WE ARE TWINS!!!!

Revenge of the Titanic

Let me tell you a thing or two about what I am all about.....

No wait, let me tell you what I am NOT all about- shady motherfuckers.

Lessons in Love

MY FEELINGS FOR TODAY CONSIST OF NEON TREES, NASA, AND GOING TO THE FAIR and of course, you.

The European Publicist

What if I changed my style to dress more like this? Would that shizz fly on me or what? Can I talk like a brit too? Will this get me more clients? So many questions...

Call me the dream maker.

So a lot of you know I do publicity now. For actors and musicians and a mixture of both! It's awesome!! The clientele keeps rolling in and it just hit me this morning: these people have a dream, a path they want to follow and it is MY job to help them get there. whoaaaaa.

Why would anyone want lame-o Miranda Partin, community college extraordinaire, NASA bound and out of the social circle of life to represent and make their image sought after? I'll tell you why, because I've been doing this for years and i know how to do my job.

It's easy for the most part, get your resume and head shots to the T, start getting work and I'll start putting your name on the internet, help you get gigs and the all too glorified: get your feet walking down that red carpet in Hollywood.

Not everyone in the industry needs a publicist to be famous dear Hollywood hopefuls but if you don't know how to handle the business your self one could be useful.

But here I am offering super cheap services for the kids with a dream. Boy does it feel good.

first post since forever ago.

I think i'll be using this blog to update MY life since I like the layout/ ability to be text post creative compared to tumblr

btw my tumblr is thevolunteerfiredepartment.tumblr.com